Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Going crazy soon....
hi im back again...
hm....yes im going crazy soon....
its hard to pretend someone that you are not...
its hard to put up a smile when you are sad....
forcing myself to be happy
but in the end, i am making myself more sad.....
hmm......ya really don't know whats that.....
really want to ask but i can't....
its totally different from what i use to feel.....
hm....maybe i just think too much ba....
or its the truth as she is trying to give miie a answer indirectly....
really don't want to force anyone....
hm.....im so tired now.....
very tired....
but i have another fear.....
i fear to get on my bed and sleep....
because i don't dare to dream....
hm... didn't really sleep well for few days.....
but even there is time for miie to sleep, i choose not to.....
because do you know how scary it is.....
really don't know what i want now....
honestly i feel so fortunate that, the day before yesterday.
Because although i sleep for very long, but i didn't dream of anything...
thats so lucky of miie....
because i really scared to dream....
i was wondering should i sleep later.....
ya really very tired....
but please, if i really sleep
GOD....don't let miie to dream.....
haiz....its just like having a fade hopes all along......
I can really able to say those three words very seiously because i have really make up my mind le.....
but.......
its no point for miie to say now.....
lets see whether i have the chance again ba....
ya honestly although i say i have already let go.....
but.....*smile*
you are so jiaohwa....
you ran back to my my again...
haha.....really don't want you to suffer thats why
i have lots of words in miie doesn't want to say out.....
ya....maybe towards others im not competeable....
but i can say im another person that fall into your well(trap) very deeply....
if someone is as deeper than miie, haha maybe i will use hand to dig out all the soil that is below miie....
to make it deeper.....haha stupid i know..
someone ask miie..
"Why do you have to do that? Haven't you ever thought of climbing out?"
haha my answer will be.....
haha no point because the answer is easy....
haha 'i don't want to come out'
haha people call miie stupid, haha i just love being stupid....
maybe really got your hint le....
haha.....although i don't want that to be the truth.....
but i have to accept the facts....
nevermind there is lots of ways to love someone....
so i have found my way le.....
although its not the way i want....
but i do not have much choice or i don't have a choice le.....
hm....i can let go of you now....
its hurtful, but i will be strong....
and let all of your all guys to guess something...
theres a riddle for everyone of you....
haha see carefully le....
People say:
Letting go of you, 7 words to add in... haha readers make a guess ba....
haha because sometimes not everything can say it out de...
so lets guess ba....
enjoy...
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Time: 11:56 PM
