Saturday, October 3, 2009
problems affect my feeling and my mentally thoughts
hey finally feel like blogging again
hm...lets start with the title of my blog ba
hm....o level is coming
24days for miie to catch up...
hm....i do have the mindcept that i am not able to promo my self to Poly 1 at Singapore poly
L1R4 14 points
hm....i feel that no matter how much revision i did, its no use
because i don't feel something is going into my mind
hm...going to rush now
and i don't know how long can i take the stress..
hm....
my Chemistry was like sucks....don't even know how to answer a simple question
how can i get a A1 like this??
every subject will hold me back from reaching my goal
Chines....i aim for a A1
but it seems like the target is going further away from me le
because i don't think i did enough practice
my friends the chinese is like improving
and im still going backwards...
sometimes i really envy and angry when they say something in chinese which i can't understand
i told myself, when i am slacking, try to remind myself the feeling when i got myself a C5 for my chinese GCE O Level
the feeling is terrible
but why am i still not improving
i did remind myself every single day
but it seems no use...i am still behind all my friend
English...ya i got a D7 for or E8 for my english during my Prelim..
really trying to buck up now
i don't mind to have any help from every direction
at least give me a C6 for it
although i aim for B4 lah....
haiz..Ber thanks for your tutoring
i will try my best
as i don't want to waste your afford and waste my time in Secondary school
really Stress
haiz....
Physics...
although i didn't fail my physics
but its not up to my standard
i aim for a A1
really have to memorise the notes le
A math....its kind of stupid for me
because i score 29/80 for my paper 1
then i score 75 /100 for my paper 2
hey KELVIN waht are you doing?
its really stupid for you to do that
A1 you know
A1!!!!!!!!
you bloody idiot better wake up..
hm...geography and social studies(humanities)
ya haven't even started
haiz...aim for a A1 but A2 also can lah...
attitude still like that...... hey KELVIN if you continue like that, you will suffer
in addition, you will disappoint your mum you know?
better wake up now...
although i tell myself this...
but eveyone have the time when they are weak
'I really need someone to support me mentally'
i want you to help me to cope mentally
i want to let you see when im weak
as i can only share with you that im weak
let you see
only you
because i hardly will show my true colours sometime...
No matter where are you now?
'I REALLY NEED YOU NOW!'
Can you give me a hand?
no only now
but forever....
i want to hold on to you and we can support each other when we face any probems next time....
haiz....ya its too late for me to say this now.....
Honestly nowadys i am listening to 2 songs....
ya only that 2 songs.....
i find myself a little too late to realise that the song is very nice and meaningful
ya...i love it now
thats why i am listening again and again....from daytime till night time
thats sound unbelieveable ba...
ya....
if you guys don't believe, just imagine i am a liar ba.....
guys..... and girls....
try to pay more attention things that are happening around you....
don't be too late to tell them that you love them....
because when the feeling is gone, no matter how many time you say that
it mean nothing to them....
People say:'Once a feeling is gone, its gone forever'
I don't want to believe this but there is no one i know including me
'Ever does it'
Is there any miracle?
Should i believe in Miracle or Fate?
from what i am doing now, i think its Fate for me ba....
haiz...im looking at my handphone now....
waiting for miracle to happen...
but the time is passing fast.....
but Miracle still haven't came to my doorstep....
I am waiting, waiting and waiting.
Really thought of being doing something at 10am, 11am and now....
but im afraid
i don't dare to be positve....
because
‘希望越高，失望越高’
haiz.....
I heard that...
上地制造水，是因为他们知道我们会渴
上地制造米，是因为他们知道我们会饿
上地制造爱情，是因为他们知道有我们这些白痴。。
ya i admit i am a idiot....
because i am already very stupid le
because something have make me become stupid....
get what i mean by that ma....?
my friends tod me to let go....
but its hard....
so should i hold on?
haiz....i really hope that there is really something i can do....
but it seems nothing
haiz...
Rumours are spreading around or to me...
all are negative lah...
honestly i don't believe them
if i do, i only believe half....
because........im stupid....what make me stupid lei?
haha...finally able to put a smile or a laugh here le....
I will be waiting for my phone....
Waiting and waiting for miracle to happen....
but hope that im not doing the wrong thing.....
and whatever i say here, if really feel offending or make you angry
'I Am Really Sorry'
in the end, i can't wait anymore le...
in the end, i pick up my phone and make my own miracle...
is that a wise choice?
no one can answer my question ba....
i bet its not....
because i am just
一厢情愿。。。
see!
how stupid i can be...
一见钟情我去年曾体验过，但我呢够在继续我人生的故事吗?
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Labels: Downs of my life...about miracle
Time: 12:40 AM
