Monday, January 18, 2010
change myself....
hey came back again...
i didnt expect i will post again...
ya so fast....
im very tired now...
hm....ya as usual my blog will just flood with sadness and unhappiness..
think this post will be a long want again...
quite surprise that 2010 is not my year again round...
its just january and im facing tons of problems...
honestly, some are created by myself...
keep telling myself:
'Whats the point of creating?'
'Stop doing that...'
'You are nobody'
'Just get a new life'
'Stop you are scaring others...'
'All this, is your retribution'
'No point blaming others...'
kind of stupid right?
i got back my result le....
its.......im speechless....
its very bad.....
no point of saying it...
Last monday(11/1)
i told myself that i can't be weak...
because your friends are all crying....
try your best to cheer them up...
even you can't....don't let them know that you are sad...
because you are just giving them more burdens....
my result was so bad......
i am very sad...very very sad....
but as long as my friend can get up from their fall,
mine is nothing compare to them....
so cheer up....
you are very lucky le....
haha maybe i am selfish to myself, haha nvm...
because i know that i am not selfish to others.
thats enough for miie le....
after that i went to play pool till night....
haha and ya...i didn't went home that night....
the next day(tuesday 12/1)
my bro and i went to Republic Poly together with his friends
to ask them whether is there any help
but its seems none.....
haha nothing much to post....
Wednesday(13/1)
we went to Ngee Ann Poly
ya because there seems hope for miie to poly....
go there and check out some details....
and off i go to the chalet....
(my bro is quite angery upon hearing that)
during the chalet everyone was just watching some show...
haha so i just walk here and there....
ya doing nothing
*And you! i know you are not drunk, but must know your limit ok?
that day i was very tired, but i tell myself not to sleep..
after i saw my friend just came back from....haha you should know
no matter what, you need to stay awake....
ya its just a short while only and off i go....
Thursday(14/1)
i went to meet up my bro....
we went to severals poly again
trying every help we can find to get miie to poly....
apply for DAE for 4 poly technic....
SP NP NYP TP
readers get this clear....must study hard....
or else you will be very tired....
its more like a begging to every poly....
around 7 plus....
i reach the chalet...
everyone was preparing for Andy's Birthday
ya there is some conflicts
shall not post much for it...
haha just hope that Andy did enjoy that night...
that night i was half relax and half stress
im relax because i have finish my DAE and JAE
stress?
problem seems to running through my friend mind....
its no point of asking because nothing will be spill out....
so i just went to sleep...
ya its a way of running away
(BUT I CAN DO NOTHING)
Friday(15/1)
packing out our stuff....
my friend is.......
haiz....didn't really talk to her that day
the most comfortable chat is when both of us say 'Bye Bye'
Overall.....
i really very thankful to my bro that he accompany miie to every poly to apply for DAE. Hm....maybe the way i present myself isn't that thankful, because i am not a direct person....but Thanks! Will treat you 1 day....hope that both of us can get into the same poly....
Yesterday i was very pissed of....
i can feel the heat running through my body...
i can also feel my eyes is changing....
during that moment i can only feel hatred....
my EQ is really damn low.....
don't know when then can i know how to control my temper...
haiz....i ask too much le....
KELVIN CHIN SEOW KEONG!
Wake up ok?
MUST DO WHAT THE TITLE OF THE BLOG SAY OK?
'Change Myself'
Remember!
CHANGE YOURSELF
you better don't give any burdens to anyone le....
and special thanks to Sandy.....
Thanks for correcting my way or else i will be another person le.....
hope that everything will be like before.....
and KELVIN you better don't do stupid things or else....you will regret....
do what youy should do, but not do what you shouldn't do....
ok?
Really need to find a time to relax myself ba....
haah friends of mine must jio miie out arh...
lolx...
Chin kok!
you too...
Cheer up!
i won't say much because i don't want to pour cold water at you.....
Xiong2.....
Take care too......
-end-
Labels: I can do nothing...
Time: 1:47 PM
