Hi.. i just came back from chalet... wasn't a good 1 in fact... never been to a chalet which will bring lots of unhappiness to miie... hm....the worst part is that i got drunk on the first day... didn't realise that i finish half bottle of the vodka... haha.....the world is spinning and im spinning too... many things has just happen before the chalet, thought of enjoying myself there and forget everything....but........ i saw her.....why is the world like that? everytime when i make up my mind, everything will just come back to miie.... hm....thats why i plan to drink alone.... disstress....... while i am still half awake, quite surprise to see my brother/sister came back.... thought that person is going for cycling.... and when i am all alone, i can go drink... shout out everything i want....because no one will know it nor hear it.... my plans totally fail when my brother/sister came back.... honestly, i still remember what happen that day when im drunk, but some..... cannot really recall....just hope that i didn't do anything bad.... hm....after that incident, trying all my best to "go back to the past when we use to be great friends" it goes quite well in the afternoon, but at night wasn't that well. because the way my brother/sister acts make miie totally feel like..........someone that is bad...the word is very very bad...thats why i didn't want to spell it out... during the walk at night alone...i tell myself something that.... 我已经被判死刑了。。。。 nevermind le....its not important le... for now.... i just trying my very best to get things back like before.... my wish is....everyone can forget that..... let life continue like that.... hm......honestly the title of this post is actually “被判死刑的我” but thanks to that message, i have decide to change it..... that is why it is call "A Change of Mind" will never forget that 背影.... even if we are just friend..... i won't forget that..... because it belongs to my friend? brother? or sister? haha don't know what we are le lolx.... just hope that we will get back like before.... i will always side you whenever anything happens.... haha thats why i will always be at your back.... help? jokes? crap? nonesense? whatever you want..... i can try my best to provide it.... but please....not monkey.......i rather become a pig than that....T.T... hm....text miie when you are free ba... as you know...i won't message you..... haha you should know why lolx..... results coming out on monday..... hope that there will not be any disappointment again..... and oh ya...good luck to you lolx....haha should give you a name here.... "Xiong2" haha sound disgusting haha but nvm because its not my nick.... having a chalet next week again... wish that it will not be any unhappiness.... will want the 'Frisbee chalet' to replace the 'Current chalet' that i have went to.... God Bless miie and to you too..... take care....enjoy -end-
